Finally – FINALLY – after years of waiting it seems things will happen. Here is the current plan:
We will see an ex of mine, R, and X will fuck me senseless in front of him ha ha I think that’s right, yes? Amongst other things, obviously. R shits me to no end. I can’t believe that he’s such a loser he’d agree to this. I personally do not have an issue with it – it brings out that malicious little part of me that says “hurt him, hurt him!!!” and “show him what a good little slut you are – show him everything he could never get” – but I can’t believe he would honestly be excited about a situation that will so clearly be fun for X and I, and not so much for him. Perhaps he can’t believe that I really would do it… Well, think again loser, because you never knew me 
Also, we will go to a club and oooh this is where the real fun begins. We’ll roll a dice (boring, he says only one – puhhhhleeeaaassseeee can we make it two?!) and that will be the number of cocks I take that night… Just between you and I, I think it would be fun to fuck 5 and maybe give … 3 others blowjobs? Lol *wet*
I think the club will be fun… At the moment my fears are… Hmm. Fear of rejection? Lol. That by some stroke of luck, there will not be a single person there who likes the look of me…? And that… Seeing X with another girl will fuck with my head. It’s all well and good for me to be with multiple people in front of him but the reverse is something quite different… I think the green eyed monster will rear her ugly head …. Possibly because I get so little time with him it hardly seems fair that another girl should be getting the pleasure when hello, I’m right there 
but we shall see. Other than those two little things… The whole idea excites me. It just sucks that it’s so far away – 10 whole weeks 
but we shall see. Other than those two little things… The whole idea excites me. It just sucks that it’s so far away – 10 whole weeks 
