Blissful Deviant's Blog

Hi everyone,

As I’m sure a lot of you have figured out already… My focus has been changing.

I feel like at the point I’m at in my life, and with where I want to be, I want and need to take charge and fully assess what I’m putting out there.

I LOVE all the dirty naughty things I get up to, and sharing my experiences with everyone.

However:

When it comes to the many photos and videos of me – not just on here, but on porn sites and such – I need to take a step back and not put myself out there so blatantly and clearly. For now at least. Therefore, I’m going to take down things that identify me too clearly. At some point I will probably get around to uploading edited versions of those files but for now I just kind of want to ‘disappear’ from these sites and be able to focus on the other important things in my life.

We all know I’m a slut at heart

… it’s just that right now I want to be a slut in private rather than all over the internet! Lol.

I probably won’t post much here for the time being but I love all o’ y’all and will be in touch whenever it feels right

xoxo

Hey y’all

I am alive!!

Will update soon… Lots of new pics

xx

Malik is currently overseas. He left about a week ago, he gets back on Wed… Man he has me well trained! I’ve been a very good girl, obsessively cleaning and maintaining the apartment just how he likes it. That’s probably one of the main areas where we’re opposites — he’s OCD when it comes to cleaning, whereas I’m more relaxed (let’s blame it on me growing up with cleaners, never even picking up a vacuum until I was almost 20! EEK!). But he has been training me well! I think he’d be really happy if he saw how well I’ve been looking after things while he’s gone.

I guess it’s a way to feel connected to him… He’s sort of in the middle of nowhere, dealing with a family matter.. Basically out of contact, no emails or calls or anything. We’ve never really gone without talking like this when on good terms! My friends think we’re weird because we are in constant contact, all day every day… And now we’re just getting a couple of sms texts per day. Feels weird!

But ya know what, as much as I miss him… I love how it builds the anticipation to see him!

Can’t wait for Daddy to get back

xo

Step by step instructions for making her suck cock like an owned whore:

It starts with him on his back and her on all-fours leaning over his body while she sucks cock. Hot!

But then…

1. Make her spread her legs
2. And keep her arse in the air
3. Move her arms so she is holding her elbows behind her back
4. Play with her cunt
5. Tell her she isn’t allowed to squirm or move around
6. Tease her clit until she’s soaking wet and moaning onto your cock
7. Bring her to the edge
8. Tell her she can’t cum
9. Then force her to gag as you shove your cock down her throat

End result? A desperate, helpless bitch at your mercy unable to do anything but suck harder and obey her Owner.

xo

So… We just watched Graphic Sexual Horror - a doco on Insex.

To be honest, I don’t really know how I feel about it.

It wasn’t what I was expecting. It made me feel.. Creepy. Icky.

You know, I’m into some pretty dark stuff. We don’t need to go into my fucked up kinks, fetishes, interests lol.. But, I don’t know… It’s not that I think that stuff is circumstantial — Just. I think, maybe, it needs to be done in a certain way.

The insex guy just seemed psycho, creepy. Like a crackpot obsessed with and inspired by serial killers who was somehow charismatic enough to turn an almost rape factory into a business haha I mean I know it was consensual and all that but he took it too far and didn’t run it in a way that ummm… I would be comfortable with [in?]

Gah!

Mal just says it should make me feel lucky I have him,  glad I’m his haha — so true!

Malik's Girl ... x

… But we both already knew that

(*Note: having thought about it for a week… I’m not sure I was in the right frame of mind to watch the doco… Maybe I would have a different reaction to it if I watched it in a different situation, while in a different mood – but in the mood I was in, at the time I watched it, it made my skin crawl… If you watch it, let me know what you think!! x)

Woooo big dirty weekend coming up.

Needed a bit of a break.

New posts soon.

xo

I’m a bit in shock today… Feeling completely violated (unfortunately, not in a fun way). I don’t even have words for the shit that’s gone down, I’m speechless, can’t believe so called “friends” would do this sort of thing but URGGG!!!

My mum is flying in at 7am to help me out for a little while.

Everything is great with Mal though, yay!

Aight so… My housemate is fucking nuts so I’m currently moving out. Going through a lot of drama, hence the lack of updates.

Going overseas tomorrow to spend a bit of time with my parents, then my mum will be coming back with me to help me get set up in a new place.

Mal and I are good, y’all know I love him eternally! He’s my angel right now, letting me stay with him and keep my stuff at his place until I can move out properly and get all my things out of the other house.

Kisses and spanks

xo

Holla

Funny how the more I have to talk about, the less I actually post!

Dw, I’m alive upgrades and updates coming soon!

Xo

Malik and I are trying to be friends… Friends who fuck and have intense adventures, but don’t interfere with each others lives outside of that. I think our definition changes each week, sometimes each day. We’re trying to figure it out.

For me, I see him as the person I want to spend my life with… But I feel like I need some time on my own before I can be in a real position to do all the things we talk about.

Sometimes it’s necessary to go a long distance out of the way in order to come back a short distance correctly.  (Edward Albee)

We’ve had an interesting relationship, and when we first started really being together, he was still up on a huge pedestal for me and I was still basically a little girl in awe. I think, if you’re going to make a life with someone, you need to enter into it as an adult. Also, Malik always loved the girl I was on my own – I sort of lose myself a little when I’m with someone, so, I need to be that girl and not just be his girl… I feel like he’ll lose interest if I’m always as he defines me or wants me to be… How boring, to just be with your own creation. I don’t know how to word what I mean.

Anyhoo… He’s pretty much my best friend. He’s the person I go to for advice, the person I seek help from, who I speak to about everything, who I feel is always completely honest with me…

We’ll work it out.

In other news… This may be nearly the end of Blissful Deviant as we know it. At first, this blog was an exploration of my life as an owned slut, the different adventures I got up to, how I was feeling about different things going on in our relationship and my life and all that… It’s a little one dimensional, but that was the intention. Now, I’m sort of on an exploration of my entire life – and I want my blog to reflect that. Also, due to a new job, I can’t really have such explicit stuff out there with such open photos and such… So I’m thinking about winding this up, keeping it as a slutty archive, and creating a new site which will reflect on all aspects of my life and journey of discovery… This won’t get shut down, simply phased out a little…

Thoughts?

xo