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Slut Process: Full Circle

December 29, 2011

A few years ago, Malik asked me to start a blog to record my thoughts, feelings, experiences, fears, and just about everything and anything to do with my ‘slut journey‘

At the time, I was shy and awkward, practically afraid to say cunt or admit I’m a slut and I really want this. I mean, I knew I was and that I did want it, but actually saying it out loud was a different story (ahem, lets blame it on the facts that I was living at home with my parents [with my bedroom next to theirs] at the time, and Malik and I were so used to being in constant written contact, I was used to discussing being a slut but not actually saying the words lol).

Annnyhow…

It has been quite a journey!

I went from being a shy little girl to being a confident, out-there-and-proud slut. A bitch on heat so happy with (and proud of) her whorish ways she gladly revealed far more than words! I went from secretly writing blog entries and jumping every time I heard someone walking near by the room I was in, to being splashed all over the internet.. Showing off pics and vids, doing live cam shows, taking requests etc.

Quite the transformation, no?

Now, in terms of the feelings involved and the sense of pride, nothing has changed.

But like I’ve always said, I’m on a slut journey.

I feel like the place I’m at now – wanting to keep things a bit more private – is sort of coming full circle. Going from being shy, to being blatant, to now cherishing my sluttiness but knowing that it doesn’t have to be the main thing that defines me. It doesn’t have to be in everyone’s faces. It doesn’t have to be put out there, all the time, for everyone…

Sort of like… My slutty nature is a gift to be cherished, right… To be used properly, utilised and appreciated.

It’s not for everyone (to see and/or experience), and it’s not the main thing about me… But it is constant and influences my everyday life… I like to think that it’s the sparkle in my eyes. I can either put myself out there as basically a free hooker, or I can be that intriguing young lady with a very naughty glimmer in her eyes which guys simply can’t wait to discover ;)

I guess what I’m trying to say is that right now I want to be discovered, unwrapped, explored — more than I want to show it all off and be defined by it.

Make sense?

Full circle

xoxo

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Slut task: fucked by strangers

October 15, 2011

A couple of weeks ago Malik set me the task of finding someone dirty and nasty to fuck me like a slut that weekend…

Very happily accepted that task lol

I posted an ad online looking for nasty kinky peeps to pound me hehe loved reading all the responses ;) .. Wound up meeting up with a slightly older man who lives fairly close to me. I told him I wanted to be fucked like a naughty cock craving slut and basically treated like a piece of meat haha he happily obliged.

He started feeling me up the moment I stepped foot in his apartment. He grabbed me, kissed me, ran his hands all over my body … I was already soaked when I arrived but instantly got even wetter as he groped me like a whore. I was soon naked in his lounge, bent over a couch so he could feel my holes and I could suck his cock. We moved to a bedroom upstairs and I lay with my legs spread and cunt wide open as he continued examining my body and enjoying the eager fuckmeat presented before him.

To be honest… The night is a bit of a blurry wet dream for me, everything blended into one horny memory lol I go somewhere else when I’m being shared, being used. It’s like being on a huge natural high. Omg. I get so buzzed from being a slut haha ;) Annnnyway. I remember.. Him telling me to spread my cunt wide and make myself cum, kneeling on the bed and sucking his cock, him playing with my cunt, me showing him what a desperate bitch on heat I turn into when I play with my wand… Moaning like a whore, talking about me being shared.. And then speaking to his friend and convincing him to get out of bed and come over to fuck me too.

When the friend arrived I was spread out on the bed with my vibrating wand buzzing away at my cunt. I was squirming and panting and moaning like a whore, driving myself crazy but not letting myself cum, showing them both exactly what I am. I remember having the wand on my clit while they pounded my fuckhole with a vibe. I remember them being rough (hot!!!) – slapping me and grabbing me, lightly choking me, smacking and playing with my red raw cunt.

Oh yeah… I went there after being used hard for a few days – my cunt was literally red raw and hot to touch, but still sopping wet. Being used by two strangers when I couldn’t even shut my legs properly, having them go to town on my cunt and talk about how sore I looked.. DAMN. So hot.

I went straight over to Malik’s when we finished up. I offered him my sore, tender lil red hole. I was beyond wet. No surprises there hehe. My cunt was so sensitive it felt like it was buzzing.. I was a bit jittery when Malik reached out to feel just how wet I was. So raw I was kinda scared knowing he was going to fuck me soon and that he’d definitely pound me lol. But you know… Daddy likes hurting me sometimes ;) and I like him hurting me, using me like that, continuing to touch me and play while I squirm .. That cheeky knowing look on his face that says “This is my property, I’ll do whatever I want with her” haha I like that he enjoys seeing the tears in my eyes, knowing I’m in pain but will still do whatever he wants.

Later on Malik had me on my back with my legs spread wide so he could tease my cunt as much as he wanted. At first I was sensitive and squirmy, but within moments I was too wet and too desperate to notice at all. Instead I was begging, writhing around and thanking Daddy for playing with my holes, craving his cock shoved deep inside me. He moved between my legs and got ready to use me then slapped my clit with his cock. Over and over. He got me on the verge of cumming then slid his cock down my cunt, teasing my hole then back up to my clit. It kinda hit me what a whore I am lol so desperate for him that all he has to do is slap his cock on my cunt and I’m literally begging to cum. Love that! Fiiiinally (lol) he fucked me and OMFG…!!! I need to get shared around when I’m raw and hurting more often! Daddy’s cock inside me felt AH-MAY-ZING. Like cum in 3 seconds amazing lol.

All in all an awesome night and a task I thoroughly enjoyed completing! Malik is currently talking to the main guy involved, arranging a couple of things to do with me. Can’t wait! I loved the way he used me and want to know what else he has up his sleeve hehe.

You can view a few pics from that night on my tumblr account

xo

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July 22, 2011

The direction that we head in is not for me to dictate, my influence is in how we are doing and how quickly we progress. When things get frustrating, my job is to ease the tension. When he gets rude or distant, my job is to be his sweet little girl who gives him more reasons to see her. When something is said or done and I see red, my job is to remember my place and to not speak out of place. When I’m upset, my job is to calm myself and figure out a way to express it to Sir that is respectful and to the point. Whatever is happening, my role is to ensure that we are good. For every negative, my role is to counteract it, and keep us moving forward. (Taken from The Rules)

Mmm, interesting… Hehe ;) xo

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Vintage treasures!

March 6, 2011

I found treasure today! :D

While clearing out my room, I opened up an old suitcase only to find…

My old (secret!) journals …

Enjoy!

Pondering life (15yrs): I know there’s more to life, because otherwise I wouldn’t crave it – you can’t crave something that doesn’t exist… How do you know to want it? I know there’s more to experience – a deeper level to go to – because I don’t feel fulfilled or satisfied!

Obsessions about Malik (18yrs) : I met Malik. That was an experience in itself. He wants me to be his which is appealing in my mind but totally grey in my mind. Erm. Heart. I dunno. …

… I went to Malik’s place at around 11pm. I was super buzzy by that point so I was feeling a little less shy than usual when he asked (made) me [to] say a heap of dodgy stuff to him on the phone and to the taxi driver. Stuff like that he’s my Master, and that I want to fuck him etc. It was ok – thankfully I could mostly just answer “yes” to most things! … When I got there, he started fingering me on the street and grabbing my arse. He made me lift up my skirt for him to see my panties, then we went inside… He made me slowly strip for him. He said he’d missed me – aww. … Before stripping he’d made me turn around, bend down and touch the ground – that was a bit embarrassing though, cos I hate my ass! …

… God I love sex with him! He says all these dirty, nasty things that just turn me on. Mmmm ;) yum! He’s such a good fuck. He took some photos of us fucking, me sucking his cock, me naked on the bed with my les spread, me fingering myself. They’re hot. … Last night I was louder, less inhibited, much more submissive – much less pouting, freaking out and trying to get out of things! That’s how I want things to be between he and I all the time.

… He keeps gagging me with his cock – almost to the point of vomiting. Every time I get to that point, I have to stay there for 3 seconds and then I can stop. I guess it’s to teach me to take more each time.

… I don’t think I’m quite ready to be making entries in here about gangbangs! I’m so… Conflicted. I know that talking about that sort of stuff is a huge turn on but I don’t know about if it were reality, you know? I think… If Malik is the first one to fuck me then yeah, sure, lets try stuff. I just don’t want to make an ass of myself. It’s a bit strange – I consider myself a nice, respectable young lady… But when Malik talks about wanting to share me with 30 people by the end of this year, and he calls me his dirty little slut, or when he makes me tell him about wanting to be shared and being his dirty little slut (!!) – it’s just such a huge turn on! Bizarre hehe.

… [Malik hugged me and soothed me] … That’s what I like about him – he has this really perverted sexual side, but also a very loving, nurturing side. At least with me.

… I really want to be his. I want to do anything he wants me to – it’s strange, I know he’s fucked up, but I feel so safe around him. He makes me feel like… Like he’ll always protect me, always look after me. He looks after me. It feels right with him – it always has; long before we met in person, it always felt different, felt right with him. Oh how cute! I’m practically in love with a man who wants to have me gang fucked and humiliated! And yet, it sounds and feels good to me! ;) … Man, there’s just something about him – I get wet just thinking about him! He’s divine. I wanna be his forever! Yum.

… I know this seems lame because I’ve only seen him twice, but this goes back sooo much further than that. This goes all the way back to the infatuated 13yr old, the horny 14yr old, the delighted 15yr old, the anticipating 16yr old, and the longing 17yr old. We may only have a few hours of physical history, but this has been going on for years.

Self reflection (18yrs) : I’m just a kid, I’m still discovering ‘me’ and having fun. I get scared away easily. I have lots of issues. I’m fussy. I can be demanding and unreasonable. I can be a sook. I push people away even when I want them to stay close. Especially when I want them close. I get attached really quickly. I’m jealous. I have issues with trust. I’m not overly confident.

The One [comparing another guy to Malik] (18yrs) : We fit together well – not perfectly, but pretty well, and it’s not like we’re going to get married! I think that when you meet “the one” you just know – instantly! No denying it. So… I guess I’m not gonna end up with Malik either then ha ha … Actually, no. When we first met I knew we’d wind up together somehow one day. And since then, I’ve just assumed we would, and waited! Lol.

… Alternatively, Malik could scare me, and I could freak out and run into the loving arms of Simon (lol!) But I highly doubt that because I honestly, really, really want to do the things Malik has planned for me. On Thursday when the things he talked about turned out to be a test, I have to admit I was a bit disappointed, upset that it wasn’t actually happening.

More Malik obsessions (18yrs) : … I feel so safe with Malik – I mean, that’s a large part of why I want to do all these things with him: I know I’m safe with him, I trust him, he’ll look after me and protect me. I’m not just a slut to him – I’m his little girl.

… How funny hey, that I always reason back to Malik. He’s up on a pedestal in my mind – at least I realise that. … Simon is amazing; he’s just… I dunno. He doesn’t quite match up, you know? If Malik weren’t in the picture I’d be jumping headfirst into this thing with Simon. It’s just like… He can say stuff that makes me wet, but Malik can make me beg for his cock just by looking at me. Hahaha. Totally wanting some action right now ;)

Love & destiny (18yrs) : … My final thoughts on this matter: love is a never ending journey, an undeniable, inexplicable rollercoaster we can’t control – and we shouldn’t want or try to. When love is true and real, it is persistent and forces you to pay attention. And when you’re right in the middle of the freefall on the rollercoaster… Destiny kicks in and holds you safe. Whatever my destiny is, it will happen – it is happening.

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Confession of a nasty bitch ;)

December 31, 2010

I find it highly erotic and dirty, with equal parts fascinating and amusing that just a few weeks ago, an ordinary Tuesday morning turned out to be extraordinarily dirty… And further proving my Owner what a nasty lil bitch I am, it didn’t feel nasty at all – it felt normal, natural, and ahem … Fucking incredible!

Taken this morning

Taken this morning

I can’t wait to take it further.

Daddy knows what I’m talking about ;)

xox

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Busy lil nymphette

November 29, 2010

Hot diggity daaaaamn!!!!

I’m a slut on a mission! Or should I say, a whore on a mission lol I want to (read: have to) earn at least $1000 by Friday… While also working full time in an office.

Anyone wanna contribute to the Naughty Lil Nymph Fund?

You don’t get an invoice/receipt for tax purposes, but you do get bootayyyy ;) lols

Spotted! Maybe? ;)

 

Papa set me this task a while ago, at least a few weeks, so it’s my own damn fault that I’m a bit screwed right now.  I should’ve been consistently working, putting away a stash of cash, but of course I left it soooo late.  I was meant to be seeing a total sicko client on Sunday and reaching most of my financial goal through that one booking but alas… Jerkface went MIA, didn’t he?? So now I’ve gotta do outcalls and stuff through the week, after work…

Got one booked in for tomorrow night. Kinda cute, I think he just wants a girlfriend… He wants to cook me dinner, give me a massage, kiss me, go down on me, and of course fuck… But from the feeling I get, it’s gonna be a pretty easy payday! Hehe.

So why the rush? Why the task with a specific date in mind?

Cos Malik and I get a whole weekend together this weekend!

Whuuuut?? So excited! So many things to do!

I’ve been working on a wishlist of ideas to work through – I suggested putting all of the ideas into a hat, and randomly selecting them out at different times. Whenever we plan things they fall through – even when we’re planning something for just the two of us – so, if we have an “ideas hat” with a bunch of things we’re both up for and keen to do, that could be a fun and motivating game ;)

Wishlist will be posted in a couple of days – I expect comments and suggestions! Where have you lot disappeared to? So silent lately… Fudge you! :-P  jk, wish me luck!! Lol

xoxo

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Top 5 Cocks

November 21, 2010

It’s a well known fact that I’m addicted to cock. Let’s be honest, how could a straight girl NOT be addicted? Getting fucked feels SO FUCKING GOOD. My ideal cock is…. Cut, big (at least a lil above average), average to fat (no thin cocks please!!) Annnnd… Aesthetically pleasing – not bent or warped, nice consistent colour etc…. And of course, the guy in control of that cock better know what he’s doing and how to use it ;) nothing worse than an amazing cock attached to someone who doesn’t know what to do with it! Lol.

My writing task for this week was to detail my top 5 cocks.

How can I possibly choose a top 5??

This was a toughie! Firstly, there have been so many, how can I possibly remember them all let alone compare and choose 5 ;) each unique and offering different things. Secondly, this task is about the actual cocks – as opposed to say listing off my top 5 slutty experiences which is a whole other ballgame… After racking my brain, reliving my sexual history, I decided on the following:

My Top 5 Cocks:

1. My Owner

Been fucking for nearly 6yrs, craving for over 10… Indescribeably incredible. Absolutely perfect for me… Makes me cum harder than anyone else… I don’t have the words to describe how amazing Malik’s cock feels. Perfect in every way ;)

2. Ben (model)

Ben is a guy I was sort of seeing, sort of fucking, on and off for a few years from when I was about 15 or 16. He was mmm 8 years older than me if I recall correctly. He was about average length, bit fatter than average, cut… Nothing overly special but he just plain old felt good. He really got me off and we had a few firsts – eg anal… Funnily enough, I fucked him again when I was a bit older and I’d had a bit more experience, and he didn’t seem anywhere near as good as I remembered him to feel, but nonetheless, he blew my mind when I was a horny lil schoolgirl ;)

3. Soccer boy (greek)

I met this guy when I’d just moved to Melbourne when I was 17. He had one of the biggest, fattest cocks I’ve ever seen. I couldn’t wrap my hand around it, and practically got lockjaw just from having the tip in my mouth. He used to pound me soooo hard and send me home to my boyfriend, barely able to walk. Big, fat, rock hard, pounding all my holes. Nuff said.

4. Stephen

We met fairly recently (last 6 months or so). We went out for a drink and I wasn’t really feeling it, but he suggested we go back to my place and I thought “what the hell!” and agreed lol. Woah, so glad I did! He had aaalllllll the right moves hitting all the right places. Yum. It sort of spun me out – he had this big fat cock I wasn’t expecting (he’s not a bulky guy ha ha) and then had pretty much the same moves as Malik… So I kept grabbing onto him how I grab onto Mal, and then realising it wasn’t him when I’d grab ahold of a scrawnyish shoulder lol but damn, I. Came. So. Hard!!! On top of that, I loved that he commented on how wet I get and how much he loved it, and that he said cunt and not pussy ;) Should catch up with him, come to think of it hehe

5. Small boy (melb)

This guy made my top 5 because he was such a surprise! Again, met him just after I moved to Melbourne age 17. We were fooling around in his car (how cliche!) and he told me to get on top – I instantly felt awkward, because I couldn’t even tell he was hard, he was that small! But, I followed his direction and he felt surprisingly good! He knew exactly how to use what little he had ;) It felt different to other experiences, given that I’m naturally of the mindset of “the bigger the better” … We went back to his place and he fucked me from behind and made me cum. Tiny but mighty! Lol

Honourable mentions:

“Tiler” from Melbourne – fucked me doggy while I was on the phone to Malik… Felt really good

The actor dude from Lotus – I don’t remember much from that night, but I do remember him ;)

Asian Dave – my first asian (lol) … I was high as a kite and cheating on my boyfriend. Dave was my bf’s best mate… His cock was soooo much bigger and fatter than my boyfriends, and he was older and a bit of a manho so knew exactly what to do… He fucked me so hard I bled hehe

Dishonourable mentions:

African in Perth – “ooohhh baby, I’m gonna take care of you with my big fat cock all night” … Reality: tiny, practically soft, and came after 2 thrusts

Pretty much any guy who has talked a big game and then been a total let down :-P

xox

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Bing! Lightbulb moment!

November 14, 2010

Malik and I are both super busy, I know anyone who reads this will know that because I complain about it. A lot.  We barely have time for each other, let alone to organise crazy kinky adventures. It’s frustrating. It can seem like we never do anything, because it’s so difficult to plan and have us both free and find the right people and we’re very insular and happy in our own lil universe and blah blah blah – excuses are like assholes, everyone’s got one. So anyway, long story short, we always want to do big stuff and we very rarely have the time to do that, so we wind up sticking to ourselves a lot of the time…

But I’m a cock craving slut, put on this earth to be used and fucked and shared. I need sex. Heaps of it.

Yes, need is the correct word – it’s not a want, I do need all of those things, all of the time – ask Malik, you see a change in my personality and the way I view my life, my abilities and potential, even how I behave day to day when I’m not being put to use as frequently as I should be…

Obviously, holding out for big awesome things isn’t such a great idea when it’s at the expense of doing anything…

Now here comes the big lightbulb moment –

You ready for this?

It’s so profound, you might have a hard time comprehending it…

pinkblack

drumroll please...

ZOMG!!

Why not concentrate on having numerous small things, while we orchestrate and work towards the bigger things?

DERRRRR.

That is to say, at least one small slutty thing as frequently as possible. Starting off weekly. This week, hopefully drinks and a fuck with a potential fuck buddy ;)

Fuck I’m funny.

That’s not profound at all, I’m just retarded for not trying to figure out better options sooner.

Malik has been a little testy with me lately, obviously noticing something was up… He misunderstood – partly because I acted out a lil to get on his nerves… Sorry Daddy – what I was doing. I realised we’re both so busy, we need to find a better way of making this work. I’m a bit of a perfectionist and Malik expects beyond 100% at all times, so personally, I was always focused on the bigger tasks and events… Whereas reality is, Malik just wants to see me being who and what I am, no matter how big or small that display is. Of course, Malik will say he has known and been trying to make me understand this for a long time. But that’s another story.

I made excuses, you know, like I work full time so I don’t want to do things during the week because I’m so tired when I get home and I have other things to do and blah blah blah… But what’s so hard about going for a drink? Especially locally? And harsh but fair, I’m constantly begging Mal to use me more during the week – therefore, why is it easy for me to fuck my Owner during the week, but not someone else? It’s not, they’re the same, they both require the same sort of effort. Actually, seeing Malik probably requires more effort because I’m more invested in him lol. So yeah… Doing something at least one night a week during the week should be easily managed methinks!

Onto other topics… Papa gave me a writing task today, yay! I’ve been working on it, but it’s hard! I have to make a list of the best 5 cocks I’ve had… Considering we’re in triple digits now, I’d say it’s understandable that I don’t really remember each and every one of them in vivid detail lol I’m having a hard time narrowing it down to 5, and also on focusing on the cock aspect more than the experience side of things because if I had to come up with a list of my 5 favourite sexual experiences, it may look entirely different. Maybe I’ll include a list of honourable mentions.

Better yet, what about the dishonourable mentions lol.

I have a week to complete my writing task but I’m aiming to post it long before then.

Peace out y’all ;)

xx

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Gettin busy in the park ;)

September 26, 2010

I love us.

Both of us are homebodies, it takes a lot of effort for us to go out. Especially with each other. We’re much more likely to just hole up in a room together and fuck all night, than go to some packed out club and be around gross people. So it takes a lot of motivation and determination for us to plan something. So we planned something. And then on Friday afternoon, he suggested that we have a quiet night, just us, maybe go see a movie or something… And I quickly agreed lol bless us, planning to be social and caving and doing our own thing. Loves it.

Going to the movies with him is sort of amusing — he’ll say it’s my choice, and then I tell him what I think we should see, and he says “aww girl you chose wrong, choose again” and I keep “choosing” until I guess what he actually wants to see, and then he tells me what a good girl I am for choosing the right movie har har.

We did our usual thing, got sushi and went to see a movie. Something always goes wrong when we try to see a movie! Last time, they printed off the wrong tickets and we wound up in a random movie. This time, we asked for the 8:30 session and we got the 9:30 sesh, so, we had an hour to kill.

We went for a walk. Daddy took me to a park which is basically opposite the cinema. We were standing on a bridge over a lake thingie and he had his hands down my pants, doing his own thing lol he asked why my cunt was so wet… I was thinking, fark, as soon as I realised we had an hour to kill my cunt got wet. As soon as I saw we were coming into this dark park, my cunt got wetter. As soon as you grabbed me, I got soaked. What am I meant to say? ;)

We went further into the park and Daddy pulled me behind this… Ermm… Thingie, I dunno, whatever. Anyway, we were hidden from the paths and such. I got on my knees and sucked his cock, he undid my pants and played with my cunt, spun me around, fucked me up against the thingie we were hidden behind. I sucked his cock some more, he played some more with my cunt, and then while someone walked by, he came in my mouth…

And then… We casually wandered back to the cinema and watched the movie ;)

Of course, he took pics:

On my knees in the park

So. Much. Fun.

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Hum

September 2, 2010

I’ll try to watch my tongue and my attitude, not write anything too harsh but it’s fucking BULLSHIT, getting in trouble for stupid shit which isn’t even true or real. If I fuck up, fine, call me out on it, I need that. But don’t make up your own reality, disregard the facts, and then go off at me as if I’m some stupid selfish bitch when really I’ve done everything I was supposed to — especially when I’m the one pushing things along, and the person telling me off isn’t even interested. ARGH!

/end rant

We’re getting a hotel this weekend. I’ll be whoring. So much to do before tomorrow afternoon. I have a list of things to do – I’ve done most of it, all the urgent stuff. Everything I have any sort of control over. There’s a few extra things that need to be done – more for something down the track than for the immediate future, but, it’d be fun to get a start on it… But then, I’m sort of pissed off and not wanting to do it now, having had it all thrown in my face. GRR.

/properly end rant

Hopefully a couple of black guys Malik has been talking to come over. That’d be ELITE! Mmmmm!!! Craving craving.

Fingers crossed!

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